The Last Day

Yes, today is my last day being vegan.

It's been an interesting and fantastic journey.  One I most certainly do not regret. I have learned about discipline, God's mighty provision, about what is truly important, about how to be more flexible.  I have been pushed and challenged to share my faith in ways that I would not otherwise have done.  I have been able to minister to people in ways I could not have foreseen, and I have been challenged to trust the Lord, despite not knowing what He had in mind for me. 

And I am about to take that step again, just the flip side.  I went vegan out of blind obedience, and I will return to eating everything out of blind obedience.  

I would be lying if I said that all of me wanted to remain vegan.  Certainly part of me does.  But there are certainly parts of me that do wish I could eat meat.  That I could go to Z-Burger and get a real burger and not just fries. But I am not making this decision out of indulgence or tiredness.  I have prayed through this for the better part of a month now, I have thought and talked with people.  I have been convicted in my heart, and through scripture. 

I believe that if I continue in this lifestyle any longer, it would only be detrimental to me.  I have started to pursue veganism for the praise of man, rather than the glory of God.  I see myself falling into the trap of continuing not out of obedience, but rather out of fear of failure (or rather, perceived failure).  I have begun to be legalistic about it, which is never something we ought to do.

So I am about to be challenged once again. I am going to be re-teaching myself what it looks like to live an obedient life without having a "vegan" title to discuss.  I am going to learn about deliberately tearing praise of man from myself, because the Lord is sufficient.   I am going to be learning about fighting the part of me that pursues titles and fame - and that in my family (both blood and church), nobody cares whether I'm vegan or not. 

So today I will enjoy my salad, but tomorrow - tomorrow I will be enjoying some delicious Sushi.  :)  There will be pictures to come.